everything's magic

Thank you.

2011-06-26T07:45:00.009+08:00

I don't know how many of you or which one of you who knows me will read this,

But i'm still gonna pour it out on this post anyway. I haven't blogged for the longest time ever. And i'm still surprised that this blog is still in function.

For the past years, i have posted all kinds of shit on this blog of mine, be it happy or sad. Sadly, I leave you guys with this one final post, to send a message, to a paticular person. I don't care whether you guys think that i'm weak, but i am breaking down as i type this, and i know that it's time for me to be strong.

I'm 20 this year. This is a story about a girl whom i fell in love with. I had a girlfriend. I had known her for 8 years and we were together for 4 years offically. She was my first girlfriend. When I was together with her, we had our happy and sad times, just like every other couple. We went through a lot of shit together.

THE HAPPINESS:

When it all started, it was all happiness. We loved the company of each other. We wrote letters to each other even though we were just a class away, and we would have our friends pass the letters to one another. We would wait for one another to end their CCA on saturdays. I would purposely ask for permission to go to the toilet just to walk past her class to catch a glimpse of her. She would peek at me at the parade square when she was running around the hall on the second floor. We would purposely sit beside each other during morning assembly.

It was all so sweet it seemed like a fairytale. Yes, we had quarrels and time outs. But during this period, the affection just overwhelmed everything. Everyone looked up to the time we were together as a couple. The years and happy times went past so quickly. Year by year passed. Both of us were equally stubborn people. There were times we just lost our temper at each other so badly, and it strained everything so much.

THE HARD TIMES:

Without fail, we spend our birthdays with each other. We surprised each other with presents. We did everything together as a couple. We went out on dates , we went overseas, we took photos, we did stupid stuff together, we teased each other, we shared memories. But there were the hard times. We could be out and end up quarrelling at times. There were times when i would just blow my top on her, critize her for minor stuff, making her feel so inferior, picking on her flaws, making fun of her when deep down, it hurt her.

There were times, she ignored me, refusing to solve problems due to the nature of her character. Times where she walked away from me, times when we just couldn't hold on anymore, but managed to in the end, because of the love, the bond, and the affection we shared throughout these years. There were times, she got so depressed over us, she tried taking her life. There were times, i ran away from everything, refusing to contact anyone. Making everyone worried about me, most importantly, her. She went to all the places we would go, contacted all my friends to see if i had called anyone, all because she loved me so fucking much. And there were times i just couldn't see it.

There were times when i was so heartbroken and crushed, i slapped her. Not once, but twice. I couldn't have imagined how she felt, the man whom she loved the most laying his hands on her.

She must felt really crushed, but i couldn't turn back the clock. Times when her friends told her to give up on me, and times when my friends told me to give up on her, but throughout these, we made it through, holding hands, going strong. Times when i walked away for the first time, but ended up chasing after her in the end. Times when she waited for me for hours under my block, just because our relationship were on the rocks, and times when i did the same under her block.

Times when i knelt down to beg for her forgiveness, and she doing the same to ask for mine. Times when we just hugged each other and cried our hearts out. Times when both of us silently knew that there were cracks which were too hard to repair.

THE END:

She sacrificed a lot for me, made so much time for me, and sometimes, i would just end up disappointing her, time after time. But still, she held on, strong. Till 3 months ago, she just couldn't take the pain anymore. Times when we wanted each other so badly were ending. Tears have been shed till we were both too tired. Both of us were bruised and broken. I could tell that she just didn't have the strength to carry on anymore. How i wished i could be the one telling her, its gonna be alright, we are gonna get over this. Sadly, she couldn't see the point of holding on anymore.

We finally called it quits. She was already used to being alone. I neglected her for far too long. Both of us let each other down before but this time, the blame was on me. Times, when she cried herself to sleep when i was out partying my night away. Times when i was supposed to go out with her but not making it because i was out clubbing the night before and overslept. I tried winning her back, starting again as friends, but i knew, that this was really going to be the end. She just couldn't take the pain anymore, and the same went for me. We parted ways for good.

We bumped into each other a few times during these few months, but no words were spoken and no emotions were showed in front of one another. Although i was dying to run to her and hold her in my arms. There were no text messages, no conversations. We were not friends on facebook and twitter anymore. I couldn't find a way to tell her how much i still loved her and wanted to treasure her. We just couldn't face each other anymore.

The purpose of me typing this isn't to show how much we have been through, or how long we lasted. It is because i just want people to know that i once shared a love with someone so great, we were invincible. And there are times i just look at all the photos i took with her and end up weeping. I put a strong front these three months in front of all my friends, smiling and laughing and joking, but somewhere inside me, i was dying little by little.

THANK YOU AND SORRY:

Today, i found out that she's finally in love again. She's now attached to one of my friends. It hurts like hell to find out instead of him telling me the truth. It hurts like hell to see the person i love being together with someone else. It hurts like hell to live in the past. It hurts like hell to find out that she has moved on. All I have now are digital photos, and she took all the letters, all the photographs back.

I'm typing this to reflect on my actions these past few years. But i am thankful. I am thankful for everything that has happened to me. I have not and will never regret any of the times i have spend together with you, Ros. I wanna say thank you and sorry for some of the things that have happened.

Thank you:

For all the presents you bought for me: The G shock, the fcuk shirt and watch, the new look boots, the pair of nudie, the superman t shirt, the blink 182 t shirt.

All the surprises you gave me:

Turning up early to decorate the place for my 18th birthday. Baking cookies for me. Baking a cake for my 17th birthday. The watch you left on my bed when i was in the kitchen. the nudie you bought for me on my 19th birthday although you were incredibly broke.

All the times you spent with me:

the KL trip, the Hong Kong trip, all the JB trips, the zoo trip, the trip to my grandma's place in Malaysia, functions that my family invited you to, and vice versa. all the dates we went out on, all the times spent on lying on my bed and doing nothing in each other's arms and all the places that we went.

For the care you have shown me:

buying fish soup and porridge for me when i'm sick. hiding near my studio just to wait for me to end work and pass me strepsils and herbal candy because i complained of a sore throat. buying food for me when i injured myself when riding and couldn't walk. Putting wet towels on my head when i'm having fevers. kissing me when i am snoring beside you.

For all the love you have given me. Thank you.

I am sorry:

For being unreasonable: scolding you when you walked too slow, when you ate too slow or when you didn't want to eat. scolding you because i always think that i am right. being mad at you when you are late.

For hurting you physically: for the two slaps i gave you out of anger and desperation. for pushing you when we are arguing. for hurting you when i grab your hand and refused to let you walk away at times.

For hurting you emotionally: for insulting you and scolding you vulgarities. for walking away in anger and leaving you alone. for being insensitive and only blame you on your faults, not looking at my own.

For neglecting you: for oversleeping on dates, for giving excuses not to meet you so as to meet my friends. clubbing all the time, not stopping even when you went down on your knees and begged me to quit clubbing. for lying all the fucking time.

I am sorry.

I hope that some way, somehow, you will get to read this. You meant everything to me, you still mean the world to me, and now, its time for me to stand here and watch you go. I still love you, and i will do. I sincerely wish you all the best, and no matter what happens, just a call, and i'll be at the usual place. I wish you happiness in your new relationship and for your future and i will never forget the times we had.

Thank you for everything Roseline.

I love you.

; how far we've come

2011-03-13T02:08:00.001+08:00

wishing for direction where to go.

2011-02-11T05:24:00.001+08:00

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, no love, no glory
Happy endings gone forever more.

2011-01-12T11:52:00.001+08:00

being grown up, isn't half as fun as growing up.

2010-12-27T05:15:00.001+08:00

shine a light.

2010-06-24T00:49:00.000+08:00

fight for this love.

2010-04-25T23:26:00.001+08:00

goodbye roseline.

2010-04-14T20:31:00.000+08:00

So lately, been wondering
Who will be there to take my place
When I'm gone you'll need love
To light the shadows on your face
If a great wave shall fall and fall upon us all
Then between the sand and stone
Could you make it on your own

If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go

And maybe, I'll find out
A way to make it back someday
To watch you, to guide you
Through the darkest of your days
If a great wave shall fall and fall upon us all
Then I hope there's someone out there
Who can bring me back to you

If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go

Run away with my heart
Run away with my hope
Run away with my love

I know now, just quite how
My life and love might still go on
In your heart, in your mind
I'll stay with you for all of time

If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go

If I could turn back time
I'll go wherever you will go
If I could make you mine
I'll go wherever you will go
I'll go wherever you will go

2010-04-09T00:58:00.001+08:00

Who are you now?
Are you still the same
Or did you change somehow?
What do you do?
At this very moment
When I think of you
And when I'm looking back
How we were young and stupid
Do you remember that?

No matter how I fight it, can't deny it
Just can't let you go

I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you

Now look at me huh
Instead of moving on
I refuse to see
That I keep coming back
Yeah, I'm stuck in a moment
That wasn't meant to last

I've tried to fight it, can't deny it
You don't even know that

I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you

No, no

I wish I could find you
Just like you found me, then I
Would never let you go

I still need you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you

But still no word from you

2010-03-31T08:44:00.000+08:00

Is this the end of the moment
Or just a beautiful unfolding
Of a love that will never be?
Or maybe be
Everything that I never thought could happen
Or ever come to pass and
I wonder
If maybe
Maybe I could be
All you ever dreamed, cause you are

Beautiful inside
So lovely and I
Cant see why I'd do anything without you, you are
And when I'm not with you
I know that it's true
That I'd rather be anywhere but here without you

Is this a natural feeling
Or is it just me bleeding
All my thoughts and dreams
In hope that you will be with me or
Is this a moment to remember
Or just a cold day in December?
I wonder
If maybe
Maybe I could be
All you ever dreamed, cause you are

Beautiful inside
So lovely and I
Can't see why I'd do anything without you, you are
And when I'm not with you
I know that it's true
That I'd rather be anywhere but here without you

Is this the end of the moment
Or just a beautiful unfolding
Of a love that will never be
For you and me?

Cause you are
You're beautiful inside
You're so lovely and I
Can't see why I'd do anything without you, you are
And when I'm not with you, I know that it's true
That I'd rather be anywhere but here without you

2010-03-01T08:51:00.001+08:00

when it used to only be me and you baby.

2010-02-24T01:12:00.000+08:00

cause baby you left and sailed away alone.

2010-02-23T14:18:00.000+08:00

life is pretty much meaningless without you.

2010-02-15T20:40:00.001+08:00

let's start blogging again.

2009-12-08T13:44:00.001+08:00

when all is said and done.

2009-12-04T08:53:00.000+08:00

you're all that ever matters.

2009-11-29T02:20:00.002+08:00

i think i have got nothing to say.

2009-11-11T02:39:00.001+08:00

life's getting busy, worked for the past week.

didn't really go to school.

so many things to do, so little time.

christmas is coming soon.

this year is a really fast one.

2009-10-27T01:18:00.000+08:00

all i want for christmas is this.

2009-10-20T22:57:00.002+08:00

school's getting boring everyday.

trying to make it a point to go every day. studies really important now.

wanna try and lose some weight. i think im getting fatter.

baby bought an adidas sling bag for me. so sweet. love you to the max ok.

going to sleep now. goodnight.

2009-10-19T00:19:00.003+08:00

alright my blog is almost dead. attempting to revive it now.

fast forward, school has already started for a week now.

new timetable is death, i'll try to overcome it though.

i need new uniforms, my current one is like super baggy? so not cool.

saturday was rather fun, went to jb with suf and ruben from a last minute invitation.

bought a few stuff. going there soon again probably. to get that pair of pumas.

spending so much money as of late. first batam, then jb. world traveller. if this goes on, i will eat air until i start working again.

its sunday now, school starts tomorrow and i seriously has no mood.

and will someone please get that pair of macbeths for me? and i need a new sling bag.

2009-10-04T07:24:00.000+08:00

passed my exams.

holidays now.

school starting soon.

2009-09-24T03:41:00.001+08:00

i think no one reads my blog, if you do holla at the tagboard alright?

so that i won't shut it down. haha

f1 is around the corner. work starts.

busy busy busy.

2009-09-15T01:41:00.001+08:00

having holidays now, exams were a chore.

well at least finally have some rest.

went to jb last weekend with classmates.

quite fun, gonna go there again soon.

F1 is coming, means work is coming.

2009-09-02T00:29:00.000+08:00

exams coming. not much time to blog.

2009-08-21T01:41:00.001+08:00

how i wish i could let you know how much i treasure you.

2009-08-10T00:57:00.000+08:00

i would like to say thank you to everyone who celebrated my birthday with me.

really enjoyed myself and really appreciate all the presents.

last but not least i really wanna thank my beloved girlfriend for helping me organise this bbq.

thank you baby. i love you.

2009-07-29T01:41:00.000+08:00

just got home. did something very funny with ruben just now.
shall not elaborate. haha
waiting for my precious frame. hard earned $300 going to it.
faster come.
too broke for my upcoming bbq, someone sponser me?

2009-07-20T01:35:00.007+08:00

finally four days of work is over.

did a show at swissotel and marina barrage for NDP yesterday.

the hotel venue was at the 69th storey. view was really fantastic from there.

waited 1 hour for a lift. just because they had two lifts and one was faulty.

kinda fun and i could see a lot of singapore. ended at around 11.

went to indoor stadium for strike. got home at 2.30am.

today was some ndp roadshow at toa payoh hub.

had to wake up at fucking 8am.

went there to set up the set for electrico's three songs.

anyway they performed the national day song.

went home at around 5 came back to work at 9.

went for strike at mediacorp, for "don't forget the lyrics" the chinese version.

one guy won $200,000. what the fuck. for remembering lyrics.

finished, go home.

my frame can be collected now but i still don't have the cash.

pay faster come. goodnight.

alcohol heaven.

top of the world.

see how small singapore flyer was?

2009-07-18T09:41:00.001+08:00

been working these past two days.

nothing much just the same old stuff.

gonna work today and tomorrow, wasted weekend.

everyone is falling sick, me too.

2009-07-16T13:36:00.001+08:00

forget it.

2009-07-12T12:17:00.000+08:00

now going into almost full timing learning in tattooing.

wanna tattoo people for small amount.

raising money for my stupid frame.

2009-07-10T14:18:00.003+08:00

end of week finally, school is over.

not really very boring.

my leg is not healed yet, can't really do much on my bike.

just relaxing and chilling.

alright now there's this guy wanting to sell me a united ht 40 frame at $300.

good deal, no cash.

2009-07-06T00:08:00.001+08:00

school is starting in 8 hours time.

my leg hurts. school sucks.

2009-07-02T07:19:00.001+08:00

and now down to 290.

2009-07-02T04:49:00.000+08:00

ok now there's this guy selling his colony bloody oath frame at only $320.

i wanna get it buy i can't. fucking raising money now. help anyone?

2009-06-26T03:41:00.001+08:00

life is boring, school is starting soon.
i desperately need new shoes for riding.

2009-06-23T10:31:00.002+08:00

just got back. foot quite painful from a fall just now.
the night passed really quickly surprisly.
i am a little sick of my frame.
im looking at the hoffman b-rad now. its fucking sick i swear. sigh

2009-06-22T20:35:00.000+08:00

ruben's new tattoo, gonna add another one on the right too.

2009-06-20T23:33:00.001+08:00

did some new ink today,
best work so far, spent a lot of effort into this.
more to come hopefully.

2009-06-12T00:13:00.002+08:00

im back.
past few days were rather plain, hence didn't blog about any of it.
so, today is friday. which means my holidays start after school today.
well finally, although its not really a long holiday. still better than never.
just got home from work a while back, kinda tired.
school starts at 8am tomorrow. i do not understand why it has to start so early.
i feel really lazy, but i gotta go. fuck.
saving money for my dream frame, will anyone just buy it for me?
goodnight all.

2009-06-06T20:40:00.001+08:00

a new start, a new beginning.

"past were the happiest days of our lives."

2009-06-01T01:10:00.000+08:00

my fever has gone down. feeling better.
throat still fucked up like i have no idea.
spent the whole day at the studio today.
i wanna find someone to tattoo on.

2009-05-30T06:43:00.000+08:00

my fever ain't going down.
on and on for 4 days.
fuck it.

2009-05-28T02:19:00.001+08:00

i go to school, get home,
take my bike out, ride but can't do any shit.
get home, sleep.
i have no life.

2009-05-21T03:12:00.001+08:00

day by day passes. school's fine but boring.
just riding everyday.
tired.

2009-05-18T00:26:00.001+08:00

tiring work. took me 4 hours plus i think.

tired of black tattoos. wanna try colour.

anyone willing? (:

2009-05-14T22:05:00.000+08:00

just finished.
not quite what i expected but will do fine.

2009-05-12T06:35:00.002+08:00

believe it or not, this was done by me.
best work so far.
trying hard to get to my goal.

2009-05-07T13:34:00.002+08:00

this is the result of me inking chester,
didn't turn out bad. he did it at my house and i took my time.
hope im improving.

2009-05-05T22:38:00.002+08:00

everyone needs to watch this movie.
kinda old movie but stumbled upon it during lessons.
yeah its a comedy but it contains really touching and life learning lessons.
super touching. i think this is one of the best movies ever.
school is so boring that its killing me.

2009-05-03T23:17:00.001+08:00

here it is. not that bad but well its a good start i think.

2009-05-03T09:48:00.001+08:00

ok so yesterday i just tattooed my friend, gabriel, my classmate for two weeks.
and i marked him for life.
did a plain black star on his wrist.
really nervous at the beginning.
in the end it didnt turn out as bad as i thought.
i am gonna get pictures of it tomorrow.
out

2009-04-29T14:05:00.004+08:00

ok i am gonna update my blog for now.
didn't go to school today. shit. missed lessons.
and i have been listening in class alright.
if i can't do well in ITE i should just die ok.
and i have been looking at something.
its a new frame on my bike.

its called a fly luna frame.
still deciding whether to get it or not, its $400 man.
gonna go jam later with my classmates.
see ya.

2009-04-24T17:14:00.002+08:00

finally school's out for the week.
its friday today, my arm has a big bump.
school was alright for the past few days. funny and boring at the same time.
nothing much to blog about.
but i'll do so if someone dies or something.
until then.

2009-04-19T02:18:00.003+08:00

look at the time now.
and i just got home from a really tiring day at work.
today was the weisong and sisong concert(whatever their names are)
i seriously think that the people came to see the stars, not them.
that includes stefanie sun, show luo zhi xiang and jolin tsai.
concert ended at like 12. 4 people tear down.
by the time everything was done i was half dead.
i need to spend my last weekend day wisely.
but i have no idea what time my school starts on monday.
oh well.

2009-04-14T01:25:00.002+08:00

it was a really fucked up day in school today.
went but did nothing at all. wasted the morning away.
i swear school is boring. like totally.
went to tampines 1, the new mall with ruben, hafiz azri and no balls boy.
azri bought stuff for school.
went to the japanese street wear shop, forgot what name.
i like the plain v neck tee. and its cheap.
went home took bike out play come home.
tired, i dont wanna go school tomorrow.
yawn.
and it has come to a point where i really dont care anymore.

2009-04-13T01:33:00.002+08:00

so today is the last day of my holidays.
say goodbye to one year of freedom.
im finally going to school.

2009-04-07T00:15:00.002+08:00

so spent the whole day at xiao ming's studio.
did nothing there from 3 to 6 because he m.i.a. no idea why.
so watched him do a full back today, dark side.
don't really like dark side but the picture was nice though.
probably dropping by again tomorrow.

2009-04-02T10:52:00.002+08:00

so...
did my tattoo yesterday, went to meet suf at 12.15, but well i was kinda late.
so turned up at 12.30. but turned out he just reached. lol
ok then happy happy go already, suddenly the idiot say he forgot to bring the thumb drive, wa best.
called anthony to tell him i will be late, rushed back to simei to get the thumb drive.
met up with ruben next.
went to print the picture at a photo developing shop and headed for the studio.
was a painful 2 hours which could have been shorter. lol
the tattoo didnt really turn out like what i wanted but ya i still love it, pics will be up soon.
went back to eastpoint and wasted the evening away.
felt really tired and decided to head home.
i'm getting lazy, need to start riding soon.

2009-03-30T05:19:00.000+08:00

boring.

2009-03-25T08:50:00.001+08:00

Religious (Christian) Arguments
Written by: Chris Wayne (cwayne@unm.edu), originator of RAB and a self-professed Christian.
A word to the religious: In Leviticus 19:28, it says not to tattoo "I am the Lord" on you (i.e. don't take the name of the Lord in vain). It does NOT say you can't mark yourself at all, and it does NOT say there's anything wrong about piercing. What it DOES say is that it prohibits mutilating yourself for the dead, which was a senseless practice at that time. But for Christians, they are no longer bound by the Law. Remember that it's not what you do; it's what's in your heart when you do it. The Talmud even mentions that it's not the tattooing that is wrong, but what the tattoo is of (i.e. if the tattoo is an image of a 'false god' as opposed to just a 'design').
There are probably many 'prim & proper' Christians out there that have had the urge to be tattooed, but have repressed it because they believed it was a sin. Well, if you really believe that it is a sin, then it is. But is getting tattooed really a sin? If it draws you away from Christ or causes someone else to stumble, then yes. But tattooing isn't any more special than anything else we distract ourselves with.
Take things in moderation at your speed. We are to deny ourselves of things if they cause us to lose sight of Jesus (for some, it could be driving a car, getting married, having children, going to work, smoking, abusing drugs & alcohol, disrespect, etc.). If you have good discernment, you know what distracts you from Christ and what doesn't.
Tattooing isn't inherently evil; it got it's 'evil' status because GOD-less heathens from places like the South Pacific were tattooed. Do what pleases GOD; and one thing that pleases GOD is to be confident in oneself (not overly prideful, but confidence tempered with discernment, almost bordering on arrogance). Tattooing can bring out that confidence, because to be tattooed requires commitment. And that's a conquering power over fear and old ruts. GOD wants mature dynamic individuals that fear him to fellowship with, not people cowering in fear from some rigid set of laws. Note: fear of GOD is totally different from cowering in fear.
Some Christians will claim that drinking any amount of alcohol is sinful, but the medical community is saying that 2-3 drinks a day is good for the heart. Drink responsibly. So, for those that have repressed getting a tattoo because of family or religious upbringing, just do it. If it's not for you, fine--but don't ruin it for the others.
Tattooing in no way marks who's saved and who's not. If you've seen the trilogy "A Distant Thunder," the Mark of the Beast was tattooed on your right hand or forehead. The tattoo was 666 in binary '6's (i.e. 1 0 11 0 11 0 1 Sort of like a UPC code), but this doesn't mean that every tattoo is a Mark of the Beast.
People have stated that the credit card and the computer were tools of the Devil. So what? Everybody depends on both today, even if the Anti-Christ is to use the computer to control the population, it doesn't mean that if you use a computer, you're a follower of the Devil.
I believe that religion, when improperly used, is a dangerous thing. Christianity has wasted a lot of valuable time trying to influence people in believing that unimportant things are evil instead of spreading the word of GOD. Christianity (or those prideful, arrogant, self righteous leaders) has looked down on tattooing far too long.

2009-03-24T07:39:00.001+08:00

what if i became like him?
not the facewise, he's really handsome.
tattoos wise, really cool.
maybe one day i got more than him. lol
oliver from bring me the horizon.

2009-03-23T07:47:00.002+08:00

its 8am now, im bored.
my phone is faulty for some reason which i dont know what.
kinda lazy to bring it to nokia. warrenty over, skully need to pay only.
broke to max man, fucking stupid phone.
but finally,
finally work is over. after 11 days of work.
bored of the routine of taking the mrt to city hall, buying newpaper at guardian, then walking to esplanade alone everyday.
felt like a no life workaholic.
you don't wanna be in the working society, trust me.
im just glad that its over man.
pay pay faster come.
9 more days to next tattoo. wohooo.
imma go back to sleep now.

2009-03-19T00:57:00.000+08:00

4 more days to work over. fuck boring man.

2009-03-14T08:26:00.002+08:00

had a long day yesterday.
woke up early today cause i couldn't sleep anymore.
its 8.30am in the morning, gotta be at esplanade at 11.30am.
fuck mosiac festival, i hate esplanade.
my sore throat hasn't gone away. its irritating.
i wanna quit smoking, i believe its all in the mind.
as if it was so easy.
i have 8 more days of working to go.
say goodbye to fun in the meantime.

2009-03-12T07:26:00.001+08:00

im going to work in 4 hours time, and im not asleep. sigh.

2009-03-11T08:43:00.001+08:00

due to extreme boringness( don't know if word even exists.), i have decided to blog again.
anyways, gonna be busy because of work, mosiac is coming. and im like half sick.
stop the rain.

2009-02-14T14:17:00.000+08:00

no one understands, really.

2009-02-10T03:28:00.001+08:00

my tattoo machine is here!
i have no idea how to use it, and the gun is really heavy.
i guess you get what you pay for.
anyway, i wanna start learning real soon.

2009-02-08T06:49:00.000+08:00

im back from work,
and im really tired.
i need some rest.

2009-02-05T02:45:00.002+08:00

ok im back.
past few days have been rather busy.
went to birthday party,
fun and boring at the same time.
set up my bike, fucking nice now.
and i ordered a beginner's tattoo kit online.
about one week till it arrives.
im a little step closer to my dream.
kinda far though. gonna work hard.
and i have super interest in card tricks. fun.
i still dont understand why some things happen the way they do,
right suf? your probably the only one who reads my blog anyway.
haha get to sleep now.

2009-01-30T00:24:00.001+08:00

i'm back from a really long break. feeling better now.

2009-01-19T04:11:00.006+08:00

This is the day that I figure out the rest of my life.
Who do I want to be?
Will I ever get to be somebody,
Apart from you? A part of you.
Always gets carried around.
So get all dressed down, and go and hit the town.
Funny how it always works out,
You're not the only one who is lonely.
Everyone knows we're different speeds,
With light years between,
And yet it goes on and on.
So could ever we joke around again?
Could we ever really be friends?
I'll always say I want you and secretly mean it,
We could talk about it.
But I doubt it would make any difference now,
It would take forever for us to stay together.
Funny how it never works out,
So let me go,
Don't let it go on and on.
It's hard to know if this is for the best,
But I guess we'll find out in time.
All you've ever wanted lies ahead.
Cause i will always be,
Running back to you.

2009-01-18T02:17:00.000+08:00

together we'll be running somewhere new.

2009-01-17T07:58:00.003+08:00

nothing much these few days, just riding and stuff.
by the way happy birthday suf!
i wanna draw more. stay tuned.

2009-01-14T04:21:00.000+08:00

finally finished.

2009-01-14T02:29:00.002+08:00

And see, I told you so,
Its nothing like
What you thought would happen.
Now your all alone,
Just keep this in mind,
Its all been so simple.
Yes you told me so,
I think you should know,
That we're all alone

You and I, are like, everything we wanted.

And see you

I should tell you now
It's all I've got
And please stick around
I'll make you fall in love with me

And see, I told you so,
Its nothing like
What you thought would happen.
And Now your all alone,
Just keep this in mind,
Its all been so simple.
And yes you told me so,
I think you should know,
That were all alone now

Everything we wanted

And i should tell you now
Its all I've got
And please stick around
I'll make you fall in love with me
And i should tell you now
Its all I've got
And please stick around
I'll make you fall in love with me

2009-01-13T18:19:00.000+08:00

in progress...

2009-01-12T11:17:00.005+08:00

his back.

artist.

i like this guy!

my teacher, xiao ming.

display.

super hot geisha, too bad its fake.

shane tattooing.

this is traditional tattooing.

one of my favourite booths.

killer!

connected from the top.

shane.

this guy again.

star crossed tattoo.

close up.

alright i just had to go to the tattoo show again.

went there and took more photos of people and tattoos.

blew 18 bucks for the ticket because of some reason.

today was the last day and there were a lot of people.

bumped into a few people i knew.

bought a new t shirt there.

i hope they have this every year.

2009-01-11T12:44:00.001+08:00

travis barker from blink 182, +44

went riding, came home, redid this drawing again. sleep.

2009-01-10T06:44:00.007+08:00

guitar with stickers got from tattoo show!

finally to an end of my adventure.

niceee.

chris garver from miami ink.

see above.

some artist at work.

respect totally.

at work.

no words.

lady.

japanese art.

1530cc harley.

super nice picture i took of some guy.

travis barker?

working.

his hair more interesting.

says it all.

tattooing.

random.

nice nice.

no comments.

dino.

i like the logo.

amount of people.

first of all, the tattoo show was a real eye opener.

got to see tattooing and designs of many cultures.

went there at 1pm and left at 8pm.

bumped into a few people i knew.

these 7 hours were really meaningful.

and we got a few gifts to take home.

18 bucks well spent.

2009-01-09T01:45:00.002+08:00

sushi siao.

learn not to put too much hope in anything , cause i might just crash and burn.

2009-01-08T14:16:00.004+08:00

i chanced upon this photo when browsing in facebook.
this was my sec 2 class but this was taken in sec 4 during graduation day.
inside i see a lot of familiar faces and a few now couples.
who would have thought eric and alexa in the photo would be together now.
and chris and trudy in the photo are still going strong together.
and i see myself and my current girlfriend in the photo too.
who would have known what we would be like now, only God i think.
time flies, how amazing.

2009-01-08T12:31:00.002+08:00

just woke up from my sleep.
have been waking up really early these few days.
anyway watched transporter 3 yesterday with my girlfriend.
not a bad movie, though i head many negative reviews about it.
sent my baby to school and went to bedok to meet chester,
after that headed to simei to meet ruben, dino and suf.
then the riders came.
slack for super long,
richard's sandwich was nice.
slack at some playground, went home when i felt like it.

2009-01-06T09:05:00.002+08:00

drinks.

suf's not so red face.

ruben's really red face.

couldn't sleep last night as i had been sleeping for like two days.
went do at like 1am to meet suf and all.
ate a lot of sushi which they bought at 12 bucks.
sat around till 3 and suddenly i had this idea of drinking.
so we bought mixers and went to ruben's house.
drink a while and i puked out all my sushi.
no mood and cabbed home with suf.
woke up surprising early today.

2009-01-05T11:31:00.002+08:00

saturday night/sunday morning was really bad.
firstly we got caught by the police for attempting to start a motorbike.
secondly i fell down at eastpoint but no major injuries
thirdly i got sprayed by ruben with a fire extingusher and i was completely white.
you wont like the taste of sulphur. not very nice.
next, a crack was discovered in my back rim. then, faiz's front tire blew for no reason.
then i fell down really badly. my little finger's fingernail completely came out.
felt super giddy and vomitted.
went to hakim's house and bandaged my finger, really disgusting.
took a cab home with my bike. slept till this morning from 2pm on sunday.
a really bad start to this not really good year so far.
and i guess i'll do it all on my own.

2009-01-03T21:53:00.001+08:00

so got back from celebrating my baby's birthday.
hope you liked it.
happy birthday again. love.

2009-01-01T04:34:00.002+08:00

just got back from work. did some countdown thingy at fort canning.
ate a lot of food. and im super full.
ended at like 2 plus. so after packing it was almost 3am.
went back to office, and went home.
2008 is over, what have i done?
2009 is here, what will it bring.
lets see.

2008-12-28T18:24:00.001+08:00

just woke up like now.
whole body is aching.
fell down yesterday, abrasions on my back and elbow.
but i had fun with coke cans.
boo.

2008-12-27T03:10:00.002+08:00

first of all happy belated christmas to everyone.
past two days have been going out with my girlfriend,
and eating a lot. i think im getting fat.
and i love my christmas present.
suddenly i wanna draw, needa get pens and pencils soon.

2008-12-23T20:01:00.002+08:00

as requested.
ok so went out with my girlfriend yesterday.
had lunch at sakae sushi. super full.
then walked around for a while.
went to play arcade.
the games fucking cheat money.
then went to catch the movie twilight.
rather a love story than a vampire story.
after that head back to simei.
sit around for a while and headed home.
go home take bike meet the rest.
i swear ruben and desmond super dumb. shall not elaborate. lol
rode around and suddenly it was 7am.
head for home. fucking tired.

2008-12-22T00:39:00.003+08:00

ok so woke up at 11.30am today.
had to drag my tired body out of bed and meet suf at mrt station.
went to get my tattoo done.
took around 2 hours?
really like it. super well done. hurts like fuck though.
ok after that went back to simei. had my late lunch.
and did nothing much till i went home.
i need at least 1 week of continous sleep.

2008-12-21T06:52:00.001+08:00

ok its seven in the morning now and i just got home.
been too busy to blog the past week. everything was just work.
and finally some time off on my own.
1pm appointment tomorrow. die.

2008-12-14T06:59:00.000+08:00

have been busy working the past week.
show after show, tiring. woah.
let me catch my breath.

2008-12-08T01:51:00.000+08:00

tom delonge.

adam willard.

david kennedy

matt wachter.

love them.

2008-12-08T01:38:00.000+08:00

i think today is the best day of my life.
firstly, its because i did the AVA concert.
it totally rocked, and i got a lot of things that money cant buy.
and i got to meet tom delonge.
never in my life i ever thought i would be able to meet him.
but no, i met him, and i even took a picture with him and all the other band members.
the concert blew the house down,
really enjoyed every minute of it. and its for free.
and i bought home AVA and blink 182( yes blink 182) guitar picks, atom willard's drumsticks, the set list for the concert, a AVA t shirt( bought it though), tons of picture, and a really happy me.
im so gonna cry.

2008-12-06T02:55:00.000+08:00

fucking tiring day today.
shall not comment much,
working half day tomorrow.
going down to support friends in byob comp.
and at night got friend birthday chalet.
busy.

2008-12-04T01:53:00.000+08:00

min's really fat cat.

new ink.

ok so yesterday went to min's house to play guitar hero world tour.
its not that easy to play on the drums you know. lol
fell asleep at his house till like 7 plus.
then he told me my tire flat. nice
walked to shell and pump and chiong home.
sleep.

today woke up at like 4pm.
then laze around till like 7pm.
went to meet keith to get my new tattoo done.
had it done at eastpoint.
the artist good man. really happy with his work.
went to work at like 10.30pm. at sentosa.
did nothing much.
time passed till 12am.
went to have supper and went home.
yawn.

2008-12-02T21:11:00.000+08:00

motivation.