i am sorry for all the things that i have done.
although it probably won't help because of all the things i have done to you.
all the shit i put you through. having you to trust me again and again.
breaking my promises time and time.
making you trust me countless times.
disappointing you again and again.
not being there when you needed me time after time.
lying to you and nothing else.
anyone else could have treated you better other than me.
you stayed true to me. and i am being an asshole.
making you cry when i always promise not to.
hurting you emotionally and physically.
i know i am a bastard. someone who is worth nothing.
someone who is not even worth living for.
yet you love me so much and i dun even treasure you.
worst thing in the world. i am a failure.i know its difficult to put up with me.
all my nonsense. all my shit. i myself cant take it any longer.
i am a person who has a fucked up mind.
why am i treating you like that? i dont know.
i feel so different. so useless.
i just feel so pathetic because i cant even do such a simple thing.
to treasure and cherish the only love i ever knew.
i can't even cherish someone like you.
i cant help but just say sorry.
its the worst thing i could say.
i mean it.
